Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in holtsy's LiveJournal:

Thursday, January 6th, 2005
10:59 pm	i havne't been keeping up with my journal as much as i use to... something spectacular happened the other day. i finally saw kill bill vol. 1. i was suprised that i've been missing out on such a wonderful thing. this movie wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, and i can't wait to see kill bill vol 2. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: country (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
10:38 pm	j dub is ballin with cheese. lol. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
4:19 pm	for some reason, i feel like i don't care about relationships anymore. i feel for the first time ever, let whatever happens happen, and roll with it. im not in control so why spend so much time stressing. Current Mood: gangsta Current Music: dis bitch dat ho - 36 mafia feat. ludacris (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 29th, 2004
1:16 pm	life is beautiful. rough, but beautiful, and definitely worth living. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: take a picture - filter (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
6:00 pm	out of town in marquette, i bid you all a fair well. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 17th, 2004
7:03 pm	catwoman bitchess You are: CATWOMAN! Which Batman Villain Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
7:42 am	life is so crazy. and the worst part is that it hasn't kicked off yet. im starting to believe in the ups and downs. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
11:55 pm	*this one is dedicated to life* on a warm summer's evenin' on a train bound for nowhere, I met up with the gambler; we were both too tired to sleep. So we took turns a starin' out the window at the darkness 'til boredom overtook us, and he began to speak. He said, "son, i've made a life out of readin' people's faces, And knowin' what their cards were by the way they held their eyes. So if you don't mind my sayin', i can see you're out of aces. For a taste of your whiskey i'll give you some advice." So i handed him my bottle and he drank down my last swallow. Then he bummed a cigarette and asked me for a light. And the night got deathly quiet, and his face lost all expression. Said, "if you're gonna play the game, boy, ya gotta learn to play it right. You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, Know when to walk away and know when to run. You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table. There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done. Now ev'ry gambler knows that the secret to survivin' Is knowin' what to throw away and knowing what to keep. 'cause ev'ry hand's a winner and ev'ry hand's a loser, And the best that you can hope for is to die in your sleep." So when he'd finished speakin', he turned back towards the window, Crushed out his cigarette and faded off to sleep. And somewhere in the darkness the gambler, he broke even. But in his final words i found an ace that i could keep. You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, Know when to walk away and know when to run. You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table. There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done. You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, Know when to walk away and know when to run. You never count you r money when you're sittin' at the table. There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
7:15 pm	Happy Deathday! Your name: holtsy You will die on: Monday, November 1, 2032 You will die of: Alcohol Poisoning Username: Created by Quill (Comment on this)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
3:13 am	living without the one you love can be the hardest struggle in life. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
7:49 pm	down in a hole seems like there is a gap missing in my life. and this gap is leading me to certain problems that i don't want anymore. problems.... hmmm. perhaps im missing school...or i need a real job. -luke (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 15th, 2004
12:41 am	damn. now that certain people are reading my journal, im going to stop doing it, even though i really like it. oh well. goodbye, fairwell, to you my friend so long... eh nevermind. -luke (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 13th, 2004
11:39 am	users and abusers people piss me off, plain and simple i've known chris for hmmmm shit 3 years? but for as long as i've known him it seems like people just use him(mostly females...fuckin ho's). for some reason i get more pissed about it than chris does :S. but i feel like i know chris better than anyone else. sometimes i can look at him and read his mind... he's my teddy bear and im sick of you fuckers using him. i've been bitching about people using him for rides now, i think he's starting to get paranoid and think his own friends... ahem, are using him for rides. the other night (when seth had his little bbq) i straight up told chris that i wanted a ride and didn't care where to. my parents are retarded, the whole neighborhood knows about my "anger issues" thanks to them. anyway, right now im just thinking about the U. i spend so much time there. whenever im with j dub n' chris we're usually found at the U. its fun though, we sit there all day and play hackie sack, and at night we'll just have some bonnfire parties. its great, if you drive around that neighborhood on the weekend your bound to find a party. a lot of shit has been happening in my life recently, nothing of which i can control. as i stated in a previous entry, im going to powell river and i leave in 10 days i think... somethin like that. im definitely not prepared to play at that level which isn't good. i've been working out here and there but taking nothing too seriously. other kids my age who are just as good as me are working out everyday and skating everyday. and im skating twice a week, working out 4 times a week. eventually this shit is gonna catch up to me and i'll be a has been. i'm not even sure what i want in life anymore. i use to want to just go to juniors after high school and go play hockey for UAA after that. but now, all i think of is going straight to college and get a masters in business. a few weeks ago j dub and i were at fireweed watching spidey 2. kick ass movie by the way.... anyway, afterwards we decided to go check out Sector7G. the old movie theatre that has been abandoned for 3 years now, just sitting there wasting away. i could turn it into a fucking rv park and make more money than the current owners... what dousche bags. haha one of mah bitchs on the A track just brought over my maahhhoonneyyy(payday). 80 bucks for 8 hours of work, tax free...cash. is that great or what? anyway, doesn't seem like many people read this so im contemplating whether or not im gonna keep doing this... although i sometimes get self satisfaction from this. but we'll see...anyway, ~may the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and the winds of destiny to carry you aloft, to dance with the stars~ -luke (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 12th, 2004
11:45 am	hmmmm it seems as tho i have but 2 friends. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 8th, 2004
2:59 am	errrrr goddamnit, what is happiness anymore? can it be found in the clothes i wear? the car that i drive? the drugs, the booze? seems like i've done everything that there is to be offered and still no happiness. is there something wrong with me? or is it this world? -luke (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 7th, 2004
1:00 pm	can someone show me happiness? (Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
12:02 am	bruised, boozed, and broken boned this past weekend i played in "Daze of the Disc" which is a frisbee tournament. we played "savage" which means we only had 2 subs...very tiring. my calf muscles seized up and i sat out a game because i could barely walk. i'm sitting here at home soar as shit, masturbating. i have a great clip of 6 beautiful women pleasing each other...mmm. for hot phone sex call 248-2965, and ask for robin. anyway, it now hurts for me to masturbate. i think i've been doing it too much because when i rub the head on the left side it really hurts, and there is a red mark there... im thinking its from masturbating too much because my average is 4x's a day, and thats not including action from women. im really pissed off because within every stroke lies pain. im wondering how much longer i can last, even though i took a two day break. for some odd reason i've been masturbating now more in my life than ever, and im not really sure why. maybe its just the sensation, or possibly what's keeping me from doing drugs/alcohol... but it's working so it don't matta. just thought i'd update you on my sex life and frisbee... may the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and the winds of destiny to carry you aloft, to dance with the stars signing off... -luke (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
12:45 am	my bday wow.... where to begin... i started off my birthday at 8am to make a visit with my dad to a Dr. Keith Wiger to conclude rules and regulations of the holtshouser estate. after the one hour, we concluded that since its my birthday my new curfew would be 2:30am, instead of the norm of 1am. afterwards, at around noon i went and played hockey... which might have been the best part of my day. after spending a few hours burning off the calories, i spent a miserable 3 hours at sylvan learning center. for those of you who didn't know i've been taking algebra 2 and i spend tuesdays and thursdays at sylvan for 3 hours. planning out my night while driving to pick up jeremiah and sydney i realized that it was raining, and figured, 'who would want to be outside right now? certainly not i.' so i decided to cancel the party, but unfortunately im stupid and forgot to tell people that its canceled, so 6 people still showed up with gas, wood, and paper ready to party hardy.(sorry guys, i owe you) once at home after driving for an hour or possibly two, i used up 4 hours sitting around doing nothin... absolutely nothing, to celebrate the day of my birth... but thank you jeremy and syd for being there bored with me. wait! a phone call came.... "lets go to fantasy's" said a rugged voice... i replied "who might this be?" ended up being...................... john sitton, along with ross, james, and anders. feeling a new joy that warmed the frozen, glazed over heart, i said... "ok". around 11:38, not to be exact, i took sydney home thinking i'd have a wonderful night. the long but beautiful drive from syd's house to the holtshouser estate left me in awe... thinking i would have a grand time. around 12:30 i called john back and apparently they would rather go the next day. (the next dissapointment in my day) now here iam typing in my journal. waiting for the pizza i ordered, wondering what i did wrong. ~may the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and the winds of destiny to carry you aloft, to dance with the stars~ signing off... -luke (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 19th, 2004
12:52 am	Beautiful May the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and the winds of destiny to carry you aloft, to dance with the stars. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 18th, 2004
9:49 pm	Powell River, here i come i recently got back from Comox Valley (Courtney) B.C., Canada. Wow.... what a long ass trip. the week seemed like months. we had grueling workouts about 5 times a day. although once i was approached by a scout from Powell River Kings Jr. A hockey club it made it seem worthwhile. the Kings guaranteed me a spot on their hockey club for the 2005/2006 season. i will be attending their main tryout camp in late august. thx for reading... -luke (Comment on this)